doubt . . .

wats are friendship . . . friendship let ppl think is something to support when helpless . . . but to mi is not . . . i am disappointed abt friendship . . . that's something that can break easily . . . the ppl that u trust that alway will do something or say something cruel . . . i not sure weather is it that i treat ppl bad or wat . . . they sure will make something to make mi feel disappointed . . . like i say . . . u noe how to say ppl but dunno how to say urself . . . u nv even put ur shoes in someone shoes . . . happening to have something happen to make mi realise that friendship is not a strong thing . . . maybe i really not yet have a very nice and good frenz . . . friendship this kind of thing is only making mi disappointed of them . . . even close frenx or watever . . . but who cares now . . . i going on my holiday . . . enjoy my rest . . . althought i just going to genting but very fast i will travel to somewhere i wan to . . . i dun wan to waste my youth on doing nth nv even went somewhere . . . as i am not really into branded so travel is my only hope . . . alway cherish wat u have dun lose it then regret, no point . . . alway given mi promise is no use . . . action is most important . . .

haiz . . .

I regretting introduce the games . . . if i have not play . . . we would't be like this . . . u treating other better then us now . . . is not that i wan to use that kind of tone to talk to u . . . but u makes mi too . . . i am already very tired about my work . . . go back listen to those thing again more mi more frustrated . . . is not that i not understanding or wat but u have to noe a limit also . . . everything have a limit . . . last time i believe the NO. 1 is alway us but i cant make myself believe now . . . whenever who talk to u with no response of course everyone tired to talk to u . . . of course i feel hurt of everything . . . last time i can very confirm saying that u understand mi everything . . . but not NOW!!! u noe how i feel now meh . . . no point i telling others to solve my problem . . . even tell le nobody understand also no use . . . i feel helpless . . . who shares my pain and hurt . . . i have to bear myself . . . tired already . . . no point to say . . . tell already also no solution . . .

dangerous!!!

After work while walking home . . . cross the road without notice any car . . . almost kena knock down by car . . . dunno wat am i thinking . . . not enough slp???

Haiz sian . . . pls walk out of my life as i dun wan u to be in my life anymore . . . i dun like emo ppl . . . and . . . quiet ppl . . . dun show that u are weak and need help as if others dun need . . . everything u also wan to be better then ppl . . . everything also wan to compare . . . even sickness/illness . . . is there anything to compare with this kind of thing? is very xin ku de lo . . . u dunno the pain so like to compare so much . . . dun even think u are a expert also . . . if u are really li hai, dun need to say out or wat ppl also noe de . . . if anyone wan to believe u wan to be a fool of themselves then go ahead . . . i will not entertain anymore . . . as i say before if u can snatch pls go ahead . . . if that person is really can be snatch by u i also dun wan the person anymore . . . dun even keep hao lian with mi . . . nth u can hao lian . . . go infront of the mirror and c urself . . . is not that i wan to be mean or wat is that i am really HOT!!! How i wish that i can have long holiday but not in singapore . . . any place but not singapore . . . no ppl disturb, no worry . . . . immigration to somewhere . . . nv be in singapore again . . . I WISH . . .
Dunno wat is in u all mind . . . i nv have a feeling before that if i nv have meet u . . . dun make mi more and more dislike u . . . and stop doing irritating thing to make ppl fed up . . . dun add more problem to my problem . . . everyone has a problem but u should noe how to solve ur own problem and not adding to another wan problem to others . . . pls give a thought to someone else also . . . dun even think that u are mature . . . actually u are not . . . u are acting . . . i dunno y some ppl just wan to do the same thing as other ppl, like they have no own interest . . . style . . . even thought the style is not ur type . . . i like someone with their own style, own style mean . . . the way u tok, and the way u are, is not wat u wear or wat, is ur attitude, ur heart, ur mind, this is the real u with no mask on it . . . no meaning if u are living under someone shadow . . . be wat u are . . . no work stress now but home stress . . . sibei sian . . . THE MOST CAN CURE MI IS SINGING (no money go overseas) . . . omg suddenly rmb something . . . i wan to go cruise!!! GO WITH ME!!!

Finally blog again ...

Life so Sian . . . but at least i am not feeling too bad with my job now le . . . i realise everything have to "c open" arbo life will be miserable . . . i wish i have a silent peaceful life . . . with no worry . . . no complaint . . . suddenly thought of something . . . i dun like ppl hao liao to mi . . . i will pissed off . . . dun even make mi feel pissed nowadays i am really very high and low . . . sometime i might be unreasonable . . . but believe mi i will not angry without anything happen . . . just that u are not mi u dunno nia . . . someone might think that they understand mi more then myself but u are wrong dun judge by urself . . . feeling much better after sing K . . . apple so high!!! i like it this way . . . dun emo infront of mi . . . i will not entertain . . . dun even think u care for mi but actually u are pretending . . . stop doing those thing to make mi angry . . . i have enough of volcano inside mi . . . CNY no place to go . . . slp slp slp . . . chu yi go changi chalet is damn scary lo the old changi hospital is just above us . . . with my cousin chat til 5 plus then all went to slp but the problem is WE GOT NO PLACE TO SLP . . .Chu er i slp whole day from afternoon 12 to 8 then midnight 2am i slp again to morning 11 . . . and now CNY is ending soon . . . CNY is nth nowadays . . . make ppl busy . . . then ending so soon . . .